Doing What I Do.

For a large portion of my life, I've been told that I shouldn't like something, or I should do something differently. People are entitled to their opinions, but I don't often go into detail why I do what I do. Some of them are pretty simple to explain, some aren't so easy for me to explain to people who don't know how it feels. Well let's get started.

"Why do you like wrestling so much?"
I like it for a few reasons. The first being, that I grew up with wrestling being on in the house and it's a hard habit to break. The second is that as I grew older I came to understand and respect the various aspect that make up wrestling. Wrestling in America is one part choreography, one part soap opera and one part showmanship. It's really the closest thing that most Americans get to weekly theater performances. Sure the story lines aren't the best, but it does produce enough memorable moments. Even though wrestling is fake, taking a bump (a choreographed hit) does hurt and people do get seriously injured all the time. As an older wrestling fan you come to appreciate complex moves and awesome athleticism.

"Why do you hang out... With them?"
Despite the fact that I don't think any straight man has a problem with being popular with the fairer sex. It sometimes gets on your nerves. I was asked some kind of variation of this question from some of the girls I dated in high school and college. I tend to attract the wrong kind of girls around me. I may not look like a nerd, but I'd rather spend a Saturday night out with a few good friends at a movie, playing a video game or playing a table top game. I'd rather do that than go clubbing, go out drinking and do all the things someone my age is "supposed" to do. Honestly if you don't respect my friends, you don't respect who I really am.

"Why are you never on Facebook?"
Cause I have no urge to get on Facebook. I think Facebook drastically reduces the meaning of having real friends. Look, if I'm your friend, I'd rather talk to you in person or over the phone than comment on your little message updates.

"Why don't you want to reconnect with your parents/older siblings? They obviously want to."
Thank you, seriously thank you Ashley for trying to have me reestablish a relationship with most of my direct family. The problem is that I really don't have any desire to reconnect any further with my parents, even if they want to. From my point of view, they spent my entire childhood and adolescence ignoring me, why should I not ignore them? If you have no idea what its like being ignored as a child you have no idea how that felt. Never getting a word of encouragement, never getting praise for a job well done. It really tears at you.

As for my older siblings. Both of them have betrayed my trust and any feeling for them I've ever had for them. Whether it was my older brother really physically beating me up since I was little. Causing black eyes, broken ribs and getting all my teachers fearing for my safety in grade school. Then my sister stealing my property for drug money and then some other stuff I'd rather not talk about.

I guess that I'm done now... *goes off to watch something*